Yikes, I have to control my temper!
Last Wednesday during my Introduction to American Culture and Literature class, things were going OK, really, as we had gone through the seven Native American songs on the handout, and I was playing excerpts from some Youtube videos of Indian songs to demonstrate to the first year students what they sounded like sung in Native American languages (to contrast with what they sounded like when we read the English translations out loud together on the handout), when I noticed several students chattering away to each other without paying attention fully to the video playing on the big screen, so... Instead of warning them to be quiet and listen, etc., I just shouted out in incorrect Japanese, "Shizukani shiroiyo!" (Shut the fuck up). It had the intended effect, I guess, in that the class was silent and focused on the screen for the last minute of the video and my closing remarks to end the class, but, Jeez, I really immediately regretted doing that and had a hard time understanding my sudden anger, or processing it, let alone forgiving it. I had about ten minutes earlier noticed a boy reading a textbook for another English class while I was walking around the room explaining one of the Indian songs, so I had confiscated it for the duration of the class, and that irked me, because I had explained to them before that I didn't want them doing that kind of thing during our class, but still... It wasn't because the Warriors had lost game 4 of their playoff series to the Rockets, was it? Hmm... ANYWAY, I am looking forward to behaving rationally in the next class and hope I didn't traumatize the kids! And everything else last week was fine and fun (that is, all my other classes for university students and graduate school students went well and were interesting and rewarding to me--and I didn't lose my temper!).
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Yoshitaka
5/22/2019 05:22:04 pm
Hello!It’s almost over on Wednesday,
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JP
5/22/2019 09:03:37 pm
Hi there Yoshitaka!
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